When most of the people in your family graduate from prestigious colleges, it will be inevitable for them to expect you to do the same…
I will be taking the college entrance exam on August and… it’s not so far from now. And even though my wonderful parents have let me attend a review center, which are supposed to help me, I still don’t feel like I’m equipped enough. The review center unfortunately ate up my whole month of April and if it doesn’t pay off, I swear I’m going to go all depressed.
Also, despite the whole month of review center-ing, I still have to refresh my mind from time to time… and that I am not doing. This is one of the reason, why I feel like I might not make it.
Also, I didn’t take my first and second year of high school seriously. My parents told me to study hard and do excellent in all four years of high school because my gen. average would either help or harm my chance of getting into a great university. But since I was stubborn and lazy… I didn’t pay attention. I just let myself be the happy-go-lucky person I am.
Which was the worst mistake I’ve ever done.
Fortunately, though, thanks to God I was able to take things a bit more seriously when I turned third year. Thanks to His grace, I was able to get into the top six of our batch! :-)
Despite that however… I knew it wasn’t enough.
If I hadn’t been such a pathetic lazy ass for the past years, then I would not be stressing things out. Universities will evaluate my grades from first to third year! And if the average of my grades aren’t impressive enough, then I’d have to do a really great job in the entrance exam… which again, I am not reviewing for ever since April.
Honestly, I don’t think that I am alone. I know that I’m not the only lazy ass out here who’s letting him/herself distracted by the technology and fun things in this world. Which is why I am seriously foolish for not even taking this idea for granted. I mean, if I’m obviously not the only one reviewing, then why am I still sitting here blogging, playing Uncharted, or scooping myself some ice cream, when I should be reviewing while the others are not?! If I reviewed, then won’t I be like ahead of them? So why am I letting this chance slip out of my hands?!
BECAUSE I’M LAZY.
But I know that laziness won’t get me anywhere, which is why I feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach every single time I think of August being so so near!
When school comes this June, would I be able to juggle reviewing and studying without being all stressed out or crazy? I hope that by God’s grace I will be able to do so…
Because I really really don’t want to let my parents and myself down.